New situation

Working for a small company, baby due in the next 2 weeks, stress level above average. The new job is only a few minutes away and the work is easy but they continue to speak of lay offs. Last week I only had 8 hours but I have hope for the company considering expansions and equipment orders. I may take a few other part time jobs to fill the gap and see how it plays out.

press assistant

thought soup 2

Yet another day training a new guy. The new guy yet I am training other employees. I struggle to get the information I seek from those above me. I would like books and manuals, a structured training, and even a better checklist of task and skills.  A list for the one I train and for me.

I do not agree with the universal uniform, My employees would have rank and insignia displayed for knowledge and experience to aid in training and conflicts. A list of what I should teach and learn – for every rank would be helpful. I learn what I can on overtime shifts and outside work, I don’t believe that is how it should be – make a mentor system, make better instructions, let me know what the company wants and I will exceed but tell me nothing and expect that. I have borrowed and stolen books while asking friends for help and manuals to some extent of help but it seems that shouldn’t be my job. Perhaps I sho9uld change my path.

All joys are not equal

A post from a close friend that captured my attention this morning

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03 August 2013
   I’m sitting back contemplating how stupid it is of me to feel sorrowful that my life knows joy but I choose to apply it upon a scale. While it is true having my present life be different could be seen as exuberant bliss – only an idiot fails to see that it could just as statistically be seen as immensely foreboding. The life I have chosen is harsh by the standards of most. At the same time I have found those which have expressed envy to a degree. The saddest part of it all is where I am today is quite simply the positioning to perform a test of resiliency of personal strength, values, and beliefs. Get this part for it is the most important: the test was not only upon these within myself, but for those around me as well. I kept score, that can…

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Yet another 12 hour day. Working 9 in a row to help catch up on bills and perhaps get hot water connected again.

The cold showers are like torture but when I come home in clothes stiff from the salt deposits of sweat, A shower is required.  I try to slam through the training at work but sometimes the heat is just so much that it seems my brain ceases to function. It was 104 degrees Monday and I drank a 12 pack of water but still had symptoms of dehydration. perhaps more water may help that.

 The overtime is required to the logic part of my brain. If you are deep in dept…….earn more.  That seems to be the only answer I have available at the time. I work at least 6 days a week for 12 hours with the hope of having all basic utilities and then on to other goals like a vehicle.  I have many goals but since my car crash and quite awhile without income I am in basic survival mode before projects and investments are even an option.

Perhaps this is some sort of cosmic test or restriction to see the results or temper me, either way I am on my way to survival and reaching goals and will learn lessons from the hardship. I find there is something to learn from every hardship an situation life seems to throw my way.



 So life has hit a critical point. Basic comforts are endangered.

The question to myself is weather or not to kick in my emergency plan at this point. The plan means to move to a solid logic internal operating system that is socially incompatible with society but gets results. Emotion is irrelevant when solid logic is all that matters, the income increases, the behavior and appearance becomes different and even strange to social circles but the goal is reached at the sacrifice of social standings. 

Perhaps I have answered the question my self. Social outlook is low priority compared to comfort and income. I can wear cargo pants or fatigues for function, have “multi tools” on my belt, pass company test and further my education, sacrifice social appearance for function and have a better chance of sucess.  perhaps the lowest paid guy in management has a more comfortable life then the most popular worker.

Depends on values I guess……or logic.

Just a monkey

 Today I was reassigned to a job that I think a monkey could do. In the process I looked at the machines and my mind disassembled them and figured out the placement of sensors and computer controls while looking for design flaws. There was a tremendous amount of wasted steps and movements among the various jobs. Much twisting, bending, and walking that is not really required.

 As the machine went down several times, I noticed there was a mindset of just try it again. There was no taking notes or seeking solutions for repeated problems and when it came time for shift change – the same problems just carried along. 4 hours of production in a 12 hour shift. There seems to be quite a few company problems but the monkey will just continue to do the monkey job. I made my own notes and perhaps they will help me one day.

12 hour daze

Well it happens that since my recent circumstances and challenges – I have managed to slowly get back on a path of my choosing. Now after a 7 day week of 12 hour daze I have not made many post, or done much else beside working.

I have managed to work on my bike after downloading the information I needed to tune it and bringing the tools together. I had it running for the first time in 2 years to the dismay of my neighbors. It would seem that an older Harley with no mufflers make quite a bit of racket but I personally find the sound or rumble quite satisfying, but that is the opinion of the guy who has spent a lot of hours working on the bike.


Since losing my vehicle and job while also having broken ribs and other injuries, I have managed to get an income with a company that bases advancement on skill rather then time in service. It seems to be an environment I can excel in until I work for myself. I am still working on my projects and still have a huge lack of funding but I am doing research and slowly setting up long term plans for kickstarter and other funding options. I am lacking 3-D models and I am working on the pitch and max output for my input. Until a launch I guess I am just talking as many people do. There is the talkers and the doers and I know my place at this time. The notebooks, files, and ideas now need models and prototypes so that is my current financial barrier. Hopefully my ideas will not be released by others before me as I have seen done so many times but my low income life seems to be a barrier sometimes. My number one project has been seeking “feeder” projects because of the 20k$ needed for development but eventually I will find it or a better one. –


Off to work